but nobody is home! I’ve been trying all morning to think of something to write about. I’ve been searching through my numerous drafts to complete one of them to post today, and still no luck. So I thought I’d try the NaNoWriMo rambling style of writing again and just see what comes out; this is to sit at the computer and just start typing about anything that comes into my head, although obviously I will be editing it before I post it! I’ve recently discovered a new blog Your Daily Dose of Death and have been reading with interest the Anecdotes of an undertaker. He is a good story teller, and my sense of humour and disposition is comfortable reading stories about the dead. When I worked in the grief industry as a volunteer I spent a lot of time behind the scenes in funeral parlours and the Coroner’s Office with bereaved people, and not only saw many sad and horrific things, but was exposed to a dark sense of humour. Working as an age/dementia care nurse, and then as an operating room nurse also exposed me to a certain style of dark humour. When working in the country we also had to work with the Ambulance on call outs, so were exposed to the tragedy of road accidents and other sad tragic things like suicide and sometimes horrific industrial accidents. It definitely toughened me up, and my first ever nursing girlfriend Jacinta and I became lifelong friends in part due to experiencing some of these things together, holding each other’s hand and hearts as we came to terms at a very young age with real life. The fact she is truly a beautiful person has quite a lot to do with it too of course! There are stories to share for sure, but today, I am having trouble recalling much of the detail of most of them, and the one I was reminded about earlier today I don’t feel up to sharing today. Blogging for the fun of it is an odd thing to be doing, but for me it is incredibly healing and has provided me with friends from all over the world. Julie Powell and the book and movie Julie and Julie, is to be thanked once again for finally getting me off my couch to start writing and blogging. In the process of doing this, I have started to think more deeply, laugh more often, to search and look within every day, and to reach out to others with more love. At least, that how it feels to me! For now, I am taking some sage advice, finishing this up as a very short blog, being gentle on myself and heading off to have a rest.