Dad died peacefully this morning, whilst my dear husband was in transit on his way to be with him. Obviously we cannot predict when death is going to come knocking at our door, or that of someone we love, and we have to forgive ourselves if we are not ‘there’ for them. My husband has been there the last few days, and even though Dad has not been obviously aware of him, I feel sure the essence of him knew my husband, his eldest son, was there. I have cried many tears today, for the loss of someone I loved, as well as feeling terrible about not being there for dad, or for my dear husband and boys. The boys have been remarkable in their support, through their own grief and tears, and I do not have the words to express how much I love them. To my father in law who I have called Dad for many years, may you rest in peace back in the arms of your beloved wife June who you lovingly called Smiler, my wonderful mother in law and Mum, who I still miss.