This is my second blog post today, making up for a day I accidentally missed; I am feeling quite annoyed with myself because I didn’t actually post the blog I wrote for Saturday 18th August! Yes, I know, my mantra is, Did anyone die? And if not, then it isn’t really a problem!!‘ It doesn’t always work immediately, and the frustration is simply something I have to work through. Unfortunately this is happening more often, with more things, as I also missed my Neurophysiotherapy appointment and Rehab sessions this week. The  symptoms of dementia that affect my daily living capacity are changing, and like the Swan analogy, I’m still mostly calm on the surface, but paddling a whole lot faster below the surface of the water, as it much more challenging to get through my days and actually achieve even the simple the things on my agenda. Giving up is not an option, these changes have to be accommodated in some way, and with the support of my BUB (back up brain) we will find new strategies to manage them better. Of course, this does assuage my guilt and the feeling that I am becoming more of a burden to my loved ones.  They assure me I am not, but is hard to accept the ever-increasing inequalities in our relationships. One son now has to help me with so many things to do with my computer, simple things I once could do for myself. This week, he called in after work to sort something out, and I laughingly referred to myself as Nana, as I used to spend hours helping her with many simple computing skills!! I guess if we don’t laugh, we will all cry…