This quote is extremely relevant to me, and it is most definitely time for me to let go more, and to occasionally let others know I need help or support, instead of bearing the often heavy load of too many things for so many others. People don’t often check in with me, not because they don’t care, but simply because it is the disadvantage (to me) of appearing to carry a load too well.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve made a lot of very major decisions, including reducing meetings, committing to reducing some of the DAI work from July this year, as well as significantly reducing my formal study load.
Although doing so will reduce some of my physical and intellectual load, they are not my preferred choices. Of course, they are wise choices, but these changes have had to be made primarily due to a significant personal trauma last year, which has impacted my ability to function.
I know I will grieve some of these thngs, especially the formal study, but also know I will still be involved in many diverse and relevant research projects locally, nationally and globally, and in many different ways. I will also now find the time (hopefully!) to finish writing two books I have started, and finally send the final (and oft requested by the publisher) details for my third book of poems. So, it is still onwards and upwards, in spite of the ever increasing fog…
As every door closes, a new one will open; life always offers us so much to be grateful for.